3 Months Already?!?!

Okay, so now that I am a "mom", time really does fly by so fast. I never thought I would forget or miss being pregnant... and I can tell you, I have forgotten! This truly makes me sad. I miss the comfort Emmry brought to my body. I miss the kicks, hic-ups, the sleepless nights and the wholeness she made me feel. For anyone that has not been pregnant, it is amazing and wonderful. I cannot believe how much I complained throughout my pregnancy and to be honest, I feel so bad for doing so.

Now, Emmry is nearly 3 months old, and changing EVERY DAY! It is so hard to keep up. That's why Todd and I take so many pictures. We always want to remember our precious daughter. God, I just want her to know how much she lights up my life. For most of you, you know that I have always hated kids and hated the idea of having any of my own. My goodness, I was so wrong. Every tear, pain, and heartache is worth each laugh, smile, kiss and hug she gives to me. If Todd would let me, I would have 10 more! Sometimes, I catch myself wanting to pinch her to make sure she is real. And sometimes I do... SHE IS MORE THAN REAL!!


Let's see... at 3 months, she is finally SMILING! She even "ooo's" and "ahh's". She is trying so hard to talk to us. Sometime, she will laugh a little bit. I kid you not when I say I nearly have tears come from my eyes when she smiles at me. It is truly amazing. Emmry also cries a lot less now. She is sleeping thru the night. She LOVES bath time but HATES being naked and cold. We read all the Disney Princess books to her and we also read Precious Moments to her too. She LOVES belly time. Infact, that is usually the only way she will be happy. Now is when I wish I could stop the clock from ticking... I always want to remember her this way.


God has blessed us in more ways than one. I am so happy I have Todd and I am so happy to have my life. Even when things are tough and I just want to pull my hair out, I just smile because I have EVERYTHING I have always wanted!

How Much Do We Look Alike?

Todd, Emmry and I were at my mom's house last night and she gave me a few pictures of me when I was younger. I was stunned to see the resemblance between Emmry and I. There have been arguments within our family of who Emmry looks like more... I can OFFICIALLY say... I WIN!! :) Here, you be the judge and tell me. The pictures are blury because they had to be scanned but you see for yourself:

There are more pictures but it's late. So I will continue this later. Here is a new picture of Emmry smiling and a picture of me with ALL of my babies :Emmry, Abby, and Sammy.

A SMILE :)

So I officially have the biggest news....

I woke up this morning around 10:30 to Todd saying to Emmry, "You're smiling at Daddy, aren't you?" and I kid you not... our precious little princess was smiling ear to ear. Now you have to understand something... SHE NEVER SMILES! (Only when she has gas) So we popped out Todd's IPhone and got some great shots.

I never thought one smile could change my life forever but boy was I wrong. It melted me. For once, I could sense that she was really happy. She never cried or got fussy. For us, that is a pure miracle. I am starting to think that she didn't really know how to smile because she has smiled ALL DAY LONG. Let's just hope it last!! :)

Fast Forward...

Okay... I so I am going to "fast forward" a couple of weeks. It's really hard trying to go back and remember EVERY detail. It's now November 9, 2008 and boy have we been shopping this weekend. Todd says I am a crazy shopper. I "ooo" and "ahh" over everything, or so he says. I don't know but it thrills me to shop for Emmry. My heart pounds and I just get caught up in the moment.

Last night, we went to babies r us... FOR A BABY SEAT and we left spending over a hundred dollars and NO SEAT!!! Tell me, you do that too right? We bought more clothes than Emmry needs. Everything from shoes to dresses to pants and coats. I think I should of had a boy first... haha.

Then today, we took back Emmry's bassinet and swing. (Bassinet was on re-call and she HATES her swing.) We got over 200 hundred dollars back and do you know how much we have left? Guess? $31.92!! And it all went to clothes, clothes and MORE clothes. Todd says I am addicted.

Here are a few pictures of Emmry:

Emmry... She is Early.

Since I am starting this blog so late (because I still don't know how it works), I am just going to put Emmry's life from August until now into this one area. Here goes nothing:

Emmry Janelle Payne was born August 21, 2008 at 12:05 pm. Pinpointing a word to describe how I felt the minute she was born is useless. There is no word and I am sure other mothers know exactly what I am saying. Giving birth was difficult but well worth every tear and pain I went thru the entire pregnancy. Here are a few pictures of Emmry. These were taken when she was only a few weeks old.

Yes, I think we did a very good job with her!! She has some features of me but some of Todd's too. She is a great little mix.

PREGNANT!! PREGNANT!! PREGNANT!!

OK. So I am going by what Ashley Mitchell has told me. She says this blog think is cool and I should keep it up. I have had it for a few weeks now but writing this, I still have NO idea how this thing works. Myspace seems easier but this is definitely a lot better. Emmry can read it when she gets older. It's kind of like an "online baby journal". This idea excites me!

I don't want to bore anyone with the whole story of my life, so I will start at the best part; the day I married by best friend and the love of my life (July 29, 2008)... just a few short weeks before our precious daughter arrived! Ah... what can happen in just a few shorts weeks and months. Life changes in just a blink of an eye if you aren't careful.

Look below, the first picture is our first official photo together and the other one is of Todd (my wonderful husband) and myself (2 weeks before our daughter was born.)

Yeah, we have definitely changed and I think for the better. Todd and I have never really wanted children. Trust me, I LOVED the idea but was not sure if the responsibility was for me. Secretly, when I thought about it, I deep down inside longed to have a child with him but doubted that he would ever go for it. (Oh but you should see him now with our daughter.) On Valentine's Day 2008, we found out that we were 7 weeks and 5 days pregnant! PREGNANT!!! PREGNANT!! PREGNANT!!